Friday, April 07, 2006

Life Isn't Fair-Brand New Song Written Today

I got choked up in the middle of this( remember, we lost our parents 2 years ago).
The people that venture into this territory, LTV, really are reading/listening to the equivalent of a diary. Regarding this song, this is something that I think almost everyone has gone through with a parent at some time in their childhood.
This is a true story.I was remembering this yesterday,and for some reason today it came to me again. So I wrote it:

" Life Isn't Fair" ( What I have so far)

I'm remembering
My mother's face in my mind
I'm remembering a day
When I was a child

And I'm remembering
The sadness in her eyes
There must've been a reason for me to ask her "Why?"
'Cause she said

Life isn't fair
Life isn't fair
Life isn't fair
Life isn't fair

And she looked so sad when she said it
That I began to cry
And she said "Don't you forget it!"
Yet she couldn't tell me "why?"

Life isn't Fair
Life isn't Fair
Life isn't Fair
Life isn't Fair

That's all I have so far. But like I said, this is true. And I couldn't have been more than 7, I think. But to this day I remember the sadness, the...bitterness with which she said it. The resigned, disappointed look.
And I really did cry when she said it, the look on her face, I got scared.It's like I realized that I was going to be in for a hard life.So I'm exorcising ( or excising, cutting out)some personal demons here.
I think this has real potential, and I can't wait to give it a solo!
But even if this is terrible to others, I like it. And Note* If I look like I was crying my eyes out almost literally, I have been! The past couple of days have been really rough in some ways. Talked to my ex-husband last night for several hours. We hadn't talked in almost a year. That should say it all. It was sad. But on the positive side I finally got to say some things I'd been wanting to say for a long time.
Anyway, hope all's well with everyone.:)